SPM ended and it is such a relief. I'd been spending my day doing housework, playing computer games, kniting, and....studying undang. Undang is so boring. It just makes me sleep. =(
Uhh....so, I actually been wasting my time. Although there is no need to stay up late to study, I still go to bed pretty late. Super late actually. Later than exam period.
Yesterday, I read through my diary which I wrote things that cannot be revealed over here. I saw his name in it. It reminded me things that I had forgotten. At that time, I became moody again. I remember the feelings I had for him and the things he'd done. It hurts me again and again. Although people may laugh at me, even I laugh at myself, my stupidity, but I don't know why, why I felt that miserable towards him. I remembered I kept calling for my friends every single day after I found out there was her. Oh, how did I get myself into that situation? I shouldn't have step into it. I'd asked for it.
Luckily it is over soon enough. I'm better with no one bothering me in my head. No one. Nothing. Although he is gone, but his shadow still remains.
wah.. i just realized this is your first post for this year! cheer up girl! :) experience teaches us lessons! and make us become more resistant to all those stuff :)
ReplyDeleteyeah. true. i'm okay la. is just because i have ntg to post that's why i wrote these things. haha
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